Huge Win on False Purpose Rundown

In my very first session of this rundown, I saw my lack of confront and how it had cost me uncertainty and loss of power. 

I have cleaned up my first dynamic over the past few months which has brought me to this place in my processing and my ability to, first, see my lack of confront, and, second, have the confidence in my ethics and able to have and handle power. 

I feel no fear in being able to confront, although I realize that this is where I am now, and that as I continue processing that I will be given commands for me to confront more.  But I am very happy right now with my win. 

Having put my first dynamic in better order allowed me to assess my other dynamics which I assessed are in ethics, although, not very active.  So I am starting to create a more vibrant future for myself, although I am enjoying the bigger space I am operating in with less and very manageable randomity, few unfinished comm cycles, more clarity, more desire and certainty to postulate.  I feel I am in control of time.

And it all seems so simple to me:  Understand and apply ethics, confront and handle with the tech.

Over the years I have heard the expression, something of the sort, that the only thing that traps a thetan is his own consideration.  This now make so much sense to me.

From my completion of the Ethics course twice, Student Hat course twice, the comprehensive OEC course, my 18 years of auditing (taking my time to get it right), I am confident in my knowledge of how the universe is governed by ethics, and the truth that “the tech will go in if ethics are in.” I feel really good about having my ethics in and that I am applying the tech naturally and without thinking.  It all seems to be coming together.

I am enjoying the phenomenon of operating in a bigger space in which there is very manageable randomity*, fewer unfinished comm cycles, more clarity, more certainty. 

I used to feel a sense of urgency that I had to study/audit everyday, and I now feel very relaxed about my progress so far.  I am glad I have taken my time, and repeated courses to gain more understanding and certainty.

I am kind of glad that I still have very far to go up the Bridge and not feeling in any hurry. 

I am relaxed in the knowing that I can confront life here and no longer urgency to do or be or have or find a problem.  I know that the problem will present itself and that I will be able to confront and handle, and move on to the next one.

I have started taking care of my body and this has given me more ability to control my mind as I am not putting so much attention on my body, beating myself up over what I should eat, how much I should eat, exercise, etc.  I am motivated to take care of my body, see it as separate from me and understand that if I can just keep it humming along, then I can put my attention on life.

–Pat B.

*Randomity – The amount of predicted and unpredicted motion a person has, in ratio. He likes 50/50. (Tech Dictionary)

Super Power Completion

Super Power is a series of auditing actions developed by LRH around 1978. It is best done after OT III, and even better after OT VII. Here is a success story from a recent completion:

Here is my success story from the Super Power Rundown: 

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I wanted to find my true power. 

I  f o u n d  it.  

I wanted to find it in order to be even more effective on all dynamics.

I  now  k n o w  how much I am able to contribute and – yes, I will use this knowledge,

I will use my true power on all the dynamics! 

After having done Solo NOTs and Original OT 5, 6 and 7 this rundown has been a surprise to me – I found out even much more about what I have gained on my travel up the Bridge.

And one of these wins has to do with my Eighth Dynamic. It has totally turned round my viewpoint on this. This Rundown is a very special rundown. 

Ingrid H.

Win on Just Being There

Pat has been getting auditing on the Expanded Grades, and here is one of her recent wins:

Huge win today with even more freedom to be with another effortlessly, feel no need to question, help or advise, have no opinion, just in the free state of looking and being there.

    And I know my company was much appreciated.

    I feel I may have graduated from advising myself to practice my TRs * to just having them as a part of me.

    I also got to look at my increased ability to be able to be around anyone, anytime and not need to only put myself in the company of high toned, non suppressive beings. Rather I feel I can hold my position, a naturally good, clean position with no effort around anyone. Even the word “hold” connotes some degree of effort which I did not experience, rather just being suspended in space and fully there.

    And today I felt the freedom of achieving a greater knowingness of who I am.

I experienced the freedom of “not thinking” but just “being,” and not being something or someone by intention, but just being with the ease of knowing who I am.  I have more freedom from needing to be a superficial identity, a business person, a mother, a friend.  Rather, I am comfortable with my ability to handle these positions but do not need to be them. 

I thank Randy for his wisdom and guidance  and professional experience in knowing what tech to apply and when and how to do so.

Pat B.

  • TRs Training Routines – a series of precise actions to train a student to confront and to communicate comfortably and effectively.

Getting Out of My Head – by Ian


The Introspection Rundown has been life changing. Despite all the rumors, negativity and controversy about this rundown, which I can only assume has negative results if done wrong, I’m really glad to have done it!

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It’s definitely not an easy process nor a quick one, but it was so worthwhile as Randy and I went back far into my history and handled about 30+ very heavily introverting experiences – I’m assuming more than the average person and why I was such a neurotic mess – and blew SO MUCH charge off of my case! One thing I noticed at the end of the rundown was how I felt bigger in terms of my physical space in that I no longer “trapped” in my head.

I also used to have a frequent weird pulling sensation on the right side of my head, not painful but annoying and I’d even had a CAT scan done out of concern. We have handled this in the rundown and now I somewhat forget that this is gone from me as well.

I also find that I don’t worry about what other people think. I don’t mean that in a reckless way, in which some people use to justify being a jerk – of course still care about what others think to some degree – but I don’t worry about what the other person is thinking of me, how I must look to them or dwell on something that I said moments earlier, as that made me incredibly neurotic and anxious. By stopping the obsessions, the needless stressing out and triple-guessing myself disappeared and I have saved a lot of time and energy. It’s not simply about stopping bad things either; I’m more confident, more present during conversations and as a result I have a lot more fun in them and with others.

I don’t feel like I have to hold myself back nor automatically look back and feel guilt and shame about something that I said either during or after conversations; if someone has an issue with me, then I’ll let them tell me about it, otherwise I’ve pretty stopped assuming bad things are happening or reading into them endlessly.

I was also unaware how in the past that I had unconsciously sought out self-help, therapy, recovery groups, even auditing and self-audited in order to vicariously fix others, which to some degree would help of course, but it wasn’t until this rundown ended that I realized while it would clean up my side of the street and make it easier for them to work on themselves and communicate with me, at the end of the day they still have to do the work and I’m not responsible for their problems. As such, I no longer feel any compulsion to “fix myself” in order to “fix others”, nor to “seem normal”. I used to alternate between thinking I was all the problem and thinking I was victim of a bad environment and upbringing with no control over what happened to me and that my current situation was a result of the past. The reality is both are true to some extent, but I realized how I have been trying to conform to others and to unhealthy environments due to many weird decisions in the past when I became introverted. Now I feel like myself and see that I have a lot more responsibility and influence over my life, environment and others than I first realized, and already am seeing good results as I own it.

My wife says I’m less anxious and points out that I don’t keep talking as I felt that I used to have to do, which I noticed that I did when I was nervous and felt like I had to explain myself thoroughly to avoid being misunderstood. I’m no longer moody like I was in the morning – granted, strong coffee helps – nor anywhere near as controlling.

I’m also more engaged with other peoples’ lives and activities as I notice that my empathy and interest for others has improved a lot as well, it’s no longer all about me or what I think or what I think they think about me, and I give them the space to be themselves. I’m also much more interested in my wife, my friends and my family, and not in a nosy way.

One interesting thing related to that, which was unintended, was that we handled a longstanding ARCX with my sister with whom I don’t much talk. The next day she contacted me to reach out and see how I was doing. Another thing is that I am able to handle upsets quickly as recently happened with a friend. Though unpleasant, it only was 30 minutes long and I spotted it and it blew without my dwelling on it for a long time and I stopped making myself wrong continuously as I used to (I’m also reevaluating with whom I spend my time).

I also noticed myself recalling a lot more memories that I’d long forgotten about. We handled all of the charged ones in session of course, but the overwhelming majority of these have been either pleasant or innocuous seemingly random life events. I’m curious why I recall them, but I am much happier to have them rather than constantly being bombarded by negative ones and self-criticizing afterwards.

I’ve also recently changed careers and I’ve managed to create a job for myself in a company that I respect at the highest hourly rate I’ve ever had. On top of that, 2 lawsuits that have gone on for nearly a year have settled at a favorable rate and outcome. Projects I’m working on now are completing, as I separate what’s in line with my purpose and jettison anything else. I think the main reason for this is that I’m able to get out of my own way and just focus on getting things done instead of procrastinating and worrying about if I’m doing something right.

Thanks to my auditor Randy for sticking with me for such a long time to get to the EP. Thanks to Kay for keeping me accountable and for the great conversations before each session. Thank you to my wife for her support as we know that difficult things always come up during session – we have a love-hate relationship with auditing, because while I know that I’ll be significantly better by the end of it, getting through the rundown tends to brings up many life challenges long left ignored and unhandled that makes it tempting to give up unless you’re persistent with getting to the end. Thanks of course to L. Ron Hubbard and the Scientology staff who developed this great process and for helping a former neurotic get out of his head!



Stellar Gains from Communications Grade

This was my second time through this grade, and I achieved even greater improvement in my understanding of and ability to communicate effectively.

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I am more in present time, employ “Do Birds Fly” readily  in helping another complete an answer, and I am not at all concerned or afraid about having successful communication.

Besides more fully understanding and being able to see the tone level  of another and then communicate at or near that level, I have gained a greater ability to see whether the other can “have” my communication and make it at the correct gradient.

 I can have or tolerate any communication from another and deliver communication that does not invalidate or evaluate the other.   I am employing the TRs* with more facility and kindness.

I actually don’t feel the need to fill up the space with my communication, but would prefer listening and acknowledging others. I have more patience and compassion for others and feel I am better able to help others survive.

I have greater confidence and freedom, and I want to acknowledge and thank Randy for his experienced, professional and expert auditing.  I fully trust that I am working with one of the best spiritual consultants on the planet.



*TRs-  Training Routines – developed by L. Ron Hubbard as exercises to enable auditors (or anyone) to communicate more effectively.

Great Wins from 1st Auditing

I have been effectively managing anxiety, worry, lack of concentration and spiritual/existential issues using auditing.


I have made definitive progress in addressing these issues and have been feeling better about my life in general as a result.


New Life Repair Completion

This college-age young woman has made some astounding gains in her first auditing.  We are very proud to have helped her, using Ron’s tech.

“Since I’ve started auditing I have noticed an improvement in my communication skills.  I’ve been able to meet new people & expand my friend group instead of staying isolated at home.

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“I also noticed a recent burst of self-confidence in myself that others tell me they’ve noticed, too.

“It’s become easier to get ready/dressed before I go out – which has always been a struggle for me.

“I’ve also stopped saying the phrase, “I’m scared!” to myself, which I used to say frequently, almost every time I felt anxiety & I felt weak.  Now the phrase doesn’t cross my mind – and if it does I choose NOT to say it and make it true.

“My anticipation anxiety has overall declined, too.”



Stellar wins from Grades Auditing

Pat’s success story speaks volumes – for itself:


“In the last week I have been feeling more at peace and that I have more stability to hold my position. I have not felt any urgency but rather a sense of no time  – or that time is not important – confident that everything is happening at the right time and in the right order.

“Things are quieter.

“My communication has been much better. I feel content to listen to others and no need to evaluate them, but simply respond appropriately and effortlessly. I am more accepting of other’s beingness and do not feel compelled to have them see my point of view.

“I attend a support group for people with loved ones suffering from mental illness. Some attending are in urgent and distressing situations, and I have been able to be in the group and not become at effect or have my own situation get charged up and/or in the way. I have been much more able to listen and observe and then offer help and information to members. I can leave the group and go about the rest of my day without bringing the entheta with me.

“I feel sort of insulated or protected or detached while at the same time have more ability to be fully engaged in my communication with others and be there for them.

“My use of the technology has improved.

“I have been having a greater sense of wellbeing and knowingness that I can handle with ethics whatever comes up, that I will make the right decisions.

“I thank Randy for his experience, expertise, patience and understanding. A true professional.

“And I thank Kay (Randy’s wife)  for her interest, wisdom and friendship, a truly special being.”


Ian Completes ARC Straightwire

As one of the major Grades in the auditing lineup, one would expect some interesting gains to be had.  Sure enough, Ian has had them, in abundance, including marrying his longtime girlfriend.

Here is his success story:

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I’m glad to say that after a start, stop, struggle and then another go, I am finally done with ARC Straight Wire!

I’ve had a lot of successes on this rundown and yet before I started I was hesitant to begin because I thought that I might have some weird realizations partway through like discovering that most of my doubts and anxieties were because I was with the wrong person and that I should leave my girlfriend, or something equally horrible. Not only did that not happen, but in fact we got married at last on our 6-year anniversary one month ago! It was a wonderful wedding and honeymoon! Talk about improving our ARC!

While all of my inhibitions are not entirely gone, many of my doubts and anxieties have dramatically reduced or vanished, and I’m now working towards a very big, life changing project much more in line with my purposes and I’m taking a lot of steps towards a major career and life change … beyond getting married! It involves a very heavy background check which includes having to unearth ALL of my past jobs, medical history, past homes, people I interacted with and such, which brings up quite a lot of memories and emotions, but because the rundown has a significant portion dedicated to improving recall, I will suddenly find myself at times remembering a small job, gig or contact, or a random time and place which was benign but suddenly springs back to me. It’s like a nice discovery of something long forgotten.

I also had some really interesting things come up during it as well, including getting a call out of the blue from an employer from YEARS ago (from 2013) and getting hired to work on a commercial. I was actually recommended to him from another past employer who was working alongside him. And what’s weird is that I hadn’t contacted either of them in years – instead I was just listing out their names and contacts on my end to submit my work history and contacts. And during that job, while it was enjoyable and I had much clearer insights; I saw why it had attracted me (good pay, mainly being organized, observing, recording, making notes, ensuring that there were no errors, etc.) and also saw VERY clearly why didn’t want to stay in that line of work anymore (not a lot of analytical thinking, creativity, a bit repetitive, etc.).

In that sense I’ve gotten rid of a lot of the “maybes” regarding retreating to old paths and possible careers as I get more and more certain of what I want to do for my life. Likewise, a former associate from a neighboring business of a job that ended over a year ago also contacted me out of the blue, saying that he was reminded of me and thinking about me. Now it’s not uncommon for people I’ve not spoken to in years to reach out to me via email or text, saying that they’ve just thought about me and wanted to say hi. I’m not sure if this is a “secret menu” part of this rundown, but as I’m in overall better and higher communication with people of the past and it seems that some old connections are returning.

I’ve also noticed received compliments from my family and former coworkers/supervisors that I’ve drastically improved from 5-6 years ago when I started auditing and was a real mess!

It’s nice to know that I’m definitely improving my mental clarity and stability, and things are getting
better overall.

I know that unfortunately for some people this is not their situation, and I empathize because I used to feel like that, but now I’m quite confident that things will work out if I continue to do the work.

And that’s probably one of the best wins– I lost a lot of the “magical thinking” that I used to have such as “Maybe if I audit enough things will work out all right.” I mean, yes, the rundowns do help with perceptions, clarity, decisions and unburdening yourself from the past, but you still have to plan and take some action for things happen. And that takes work, something I noticed that I’m more willing to do and make more focused plans… which is easier with less baggage and resentment and fear lingering around clouding your thoughts.

Anyway, I’m glad to see closure on many past issues and projects, have a lot less “noise” in my head and sleep better too with more vivid dreams. I’m actually looking forward to what the future holds. It’s not going to be easy to accomplish because it is such a change of direction, but, unlike before where I felt overwhelming doubt, dread and anxiety, now I have hope and believe that it will be worth it if I stay focused and keep doing the right things. It takes time but with persistence it will pan out, I am confident in that.

Thank you Randy for sticking with me for all of these months and generosity with sessions as we really cleared up a lot of deep and intense material! Thank you to Kay for your support!

Thank you to L. Ron Hubbard and the staff of Scientology for coming up with this material! And thank you to my lovely wife who has supported me from day one and through all of this. I feel a lot better and I’m looking forward to looking forward!


PS It’s a great way to start a new year – I also completed this rundown on my birthday.


High on the Scientology Drug Rundown

by Anonymous

“Drugs are an outside solution to an inside problem.”

This was one of my major cognitions towards the end of my Scientology Drug Rundown, which my auditor Randy Smith handled like a charm.

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When Randy first told me that I needed to do this rundown due to my past drug uses, I was quite irritated and offended. After all, I was not a major drug user! Sure, I’d smoked some weed before and had my fair share of drinks in the past, and yeah I was not proud of all of my past moments involving them, but it was nothing excessive, right?

In actuality, I have been to 12 step rooms and to a psychiatrist, a psychologist and therapist – but these were for other issues called “process addictions” aka compulsions (e.g. money, sex, food).

Before doing it, I believed that the Drug Rundown was a mistake and that the rundown was not for me since I was no druggie or heavy boozer and I’d always been grateful that drugs and alcohol had not ruined my life. (That also said, these 12 step rooms while good-intentioned, made me quite neurotic as there was a lot of addict / aberration crossover, and there’s a new belief going around  that if you’re not in at least 3 programs then you’re not doing it right or being honest … needless to say, this kind of environment made many of my issues much worse).

Despite my resistance, I realized that this would handle the D part of PDH (Pain-Drugs-Hypnosis), which was necessary to erase my reactive mind anyway. I figured that perhaps it would at least handle some of the underpinnings to these process addictions.

More importantly, as much of my family struggles with alcoholism, drug addiction and abusing psychiatric medication which has led to failed marriages, job losses, depression, homelessness and even suicide, I did not want to fall prey to that pattern – which unfortunately I see already starting to happen with my younger cousins and brother. So, after getting over my ego, I thought maybe it was worth at least checking out and handling whatever little charge I might have on these subjects.

Man, I had SO MUCH charge removed on this rundown!  I might even have achieved Dianetic Release!  We’ll see, I am sure.

It was a rather long process, but we handled past injuries and accidents that resulted in painkillers, drugs and anesthetics – as well as injuries and embarrassments caused by these controlled substances, and everything in between. In fact, one major benefit is that I used to have chronic neck and back pains for over a decade since I was in a pretty major car accident, but now they are gone and my neck stiffness has disappeared – as has much of my tension around driving and my driving reaction times have improved dramatically, plus I’m much, much less tempted to look at texts while driving. Oh, and that neuroticism I had from the 12 step rooms? Virtually gone.

Going through the rundown, I saw that after witnessing or experiencing several incidents growing up I believed that nobody would help me, and so I had decided asking for help was weakness and that only I could ever help myself, and found all sorts of ways to escape or numb the pain. Luckily (?) I was too cheap to spend a lot on drugs or alcohol and I valued my intelligence too much so it morphed into those addictive “processes” instead, but those were not much better – in some ways worse because they are integral parts of life. I now feel free of those beliefs and emotions and while I saw that they had served me through extreme times of stress and difficulty growing up, they no longer served me and I have let them go.

Another insight – I recognized that there was at least one Suppressive Person in my life: my maternal grandmother. Her negative effects trickled down not only through her own immediate family which I learned about once I got older (there were a lot of surprising and strange fatal accidents which she happened to witness such as several of her siblings at a young age), she also lived a parasitic existence and damaged her children and her husband/my grandfather, and even deeply affected my own family. I don’t throw the SP term around lightly because it’s been so abused by the Church, but I had forgotten just how absolutely crazy it was growing up with her around because I had thought that basically everybody else’s family was like this. The point here being that spotting her SP influence was also a major realization and why I had been self-medicating but also how I realized why so many in my extended family in her vicinity went crazy, became homeless, drug addicts, alcoholics, killed themselves, were sick, divorced, disabled and miserable. The SP is rare but a real phenomenon and though the term should not be thrown about lightly, when spotted there’s a lot of release as well because this is a factor in why one uses drugs or numbs out through compulsions: it’s the non-confront of evil and a desire to feel in control of something when they aren’t.

Anyway, this Christmas I’ll be one year away from alcohol and will be 6 years away from using marijuana. I’m actually looking forward to keeping my money that I used to spend on recreational drugs and alcohol so that I can use it on more productive and meaningful goals in my life. When I am around others who drink even in social settings, I don’t even crave, desire or miss a drink or drugs (I don’t “white knuckle” it as they would say in 12 steps). Hell, the thought of having one does not even cross my mind anymore! It just seems like such a waste of money and time when I can do so many more fun, productive things in my life and think much more clearly about my future in the process! I definitely can say that every dollar was well spent on this rundown as I’m certain that I’ll never take drugs or drink alcohol again. (Even aspirin as headaches have disappeared too!)

This abstinence has translated to other areas as well as I no longer feel the compulsion to binge and gorge on food; I notice immediately when I am full and stop. I noticed that this past Thanksgiving when my brother and a cousin came over with 3 bottles of wine they were quite surprised that I did not have a sip of any drink and told them I don’t drink anymore. They drank three large wine bottles between the two of them instead and it was a bit weird to experience as I could see how I must have looked to others despite the fact that I “didn’t have a drinking problem.” I won’t flaunt it or gloat about it, but I do hope that by leading as an example they might follow suit and we can change our family history this generation. This rundown was very important and made a major difference.

Thank you to my auditor Randy for his incredible patience throughout this process and also to Kay for her warmth and wonderful communication, and for providing between sessions plenty of that legally sanctioned and socially condoned drug – fresh coffee! I really appreciate my girlfriend’s equally amazing amount of patience and support at all steps of my recovery. And yes, thank you to L. Ron Hubbard and to the rest of those who have pioneered this technology which has helped me and countless others on the road to full sobriety and a better life.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year’s everybody!