High on the Scientology Drug Rundown

by Anonymous

“Drugs are an outside solution to an inside problem.”

This was one of my major cognitions towards the end of my Scientology Drug Rundown, which my auditor Randy Smith handled like a charm.

When Randy first told me that I needed to do this rundown due to my past drug uses, I was quite irritated and offended. After all, I was not a major drug user! Sure, I’d smoked some weed before and had my fair share of drinks in the past, and yeah I was not proud of all of my past moments involving them, but it was nothing excessive, right?

In actuality, I have been to 12 step rooms and to a psychiatrist, a psychologist and therapist – but these were for other issues called “process addictions” aka compulsions (e.g. money, sex, food).

Before doing it, I believed that the Drug Rundown was a mistake and that the rundown was not for me since I was no druggie or heavy boozer and I’d always been grateful that drugs and alcohol had not ruined my life. (That also said, these 12 step rooms while good-intentioned, made me quite neurotic as there was a lot of addict / aberration crossover, and there’s a new belief going around  that if you’re not in at least 3 programs then you’re not doing it right or being honest … needless to say, this kind of environment made many of my issues much worse).

Despite my resistance, I realized that this would handle the D part of PDH (Pain-Drugs-Hypnosis), which was necessary to erase my reactive mind anyway. I figured that perhaps it would at least handle some of the underpinnings to these process addictions.

More importantly, as much of my family struggles with alcoholism, drug addiction and abusing psychiatric medication which has led to failed marriages, job losses, depression, homelessness and even suicide, I did not want to fall prey to that pattern – which unfortunately I see already starting to happen with my younger cousins and brother. So, after getting over my ego, I thought maybe it was worth at least checking out and handling whatever little charge I might have on these subjects.

Man, I had SO MUCH charge removed on this rundown!  I might even have achieved Dianetic Release!  We’ll see, I am sure.

It was a rather long process, but we handled past injuries and accidents that resulted in painkillers, drugs and anesthetics – as well as injuries and embarrassments caused by these controlled substances, and everything in between. In fact, one major benefit is that I used to have chronic neck and back pains for over a decade since I was in a pretty major car accident, but now they are gone and my neck stiffness has disappeared – as has much of my tension around driving and my driving reaction times have improved dramatically, plus I’m much, much less tempted to look at texts while driving. Oh, and that neuroticism I had from the 12 step rooms? Virtually gone.

Going through the rundown, I saw that after witnessing or experiencing several incidents growing up I believed that nobody would help me, and so I had decided asking for help was weakness and that only I could ever help myself, and found all sorts of ways to escape or numb the pain. Luckily (?) I was too cheap to spend a lot on drugs or alcohol and I valued my intelligence too much so it morphed into those addictive “processes” instead, but those were not much better – in some ways worse because they are integral parts of life. I now feel free of those beliefs and emotions and while I saw that they had served me through extreme times of stress and difficulty growing up, they no longer served me and I have let them go.

Another insight – I recognized that there was at least one Suppressive Person in my life: my maternal grandmother. Her negative effects trickled down not only through her own immediate family which I learned about once I got older (there were a lot of surprising and strange fatal accidents which she happened to witness such as several of her siblings at a young age), she also lived a parasitic existence and damaged her children and her husband/my grandfather, and even deeply affected my own family. I don’t throw the SP term around lightly because it’s been so abused by the Church, but I had forgotten just how absolutely crazy it was growing up with her around because I had thought that basically everybody else’s family was like this. The point here being that spotting her SP influence was also a major realization and why I had been self-medicating but also how I realized why so many in my extended family in her vicinity went crazy, became homeless, drug addicts, alcoholics, killed themselves, were sick, divorced, disabled and miserable. The SP is rare but a real phenomenon and though the term should not be thrown about lightly, when spotted there’s a lot of release as well because this is a factor in why one uses drugs or numbs out through compulsions: it’s the non-confront of evil and a desire to feel in control of something when they aren’t.

Anyway, this Christmas I’ll be one year away from alcohol and will be 6 years away from using marijuana. I’m actually looking forward to keeping my money that I used to spend on recreational drugs and alcohol so that I can use it on more productive and meaningful goals in my life. When I am around others who drink even in social settings, I don’t even crave, desire or miss a drink or drugs (I don’t “white knuckle” it as they would say in 12 steps). Hell, the thought of having one does not even cross my mind anymore! It just seems like such a waste of money and time when I can do so many more fun, productive things in my life and think much more clearly about my future in the process! I definitely can say that every dollar was well spent on this rundown as I’m certain that I’ll never take drugs or drink alcohol again. (Even aspirin as headaches have disappeared too!)

This abstinence has translated to other areas as well as I no longer feel the compulsion to binge and gorge on food; I notice immediately when I am full and stop. I noticed that this past Thanksgiving when my brother and a cousin came over with 3 bottles of wine they were quite surprised that I did not have a sip of any drink and told them I don’t drink anymore. They drank three large wine bottles between the two of them instead and it was a bit weird to experience as I could see how I must have looked to others despite the fact that I “didn’t have a drinking problem.” I won’t flaunt it or gloat about it, but I do hope that by leading as an example they might follow suit and we can change our family history this generation. This rundown was very important and made a major difference.

Thank you to my auditor Randy for his incredible patience throughout this process and also to Kay for her warmth and wonderful communication, and for providing between sessions plenty of that legally sanctioned and socially condoned drug – fresh coffee! I really appreciate my girlfriend’s equally amazing amount of patience and support at all steps of my recovery. And yes, thank you to L. Ron Hubbard and to the rest of those who have pioneered this technology which has helped me and countless others on the road to full sobriety and a better life.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year’s everybody!

-Anonymous

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Outstanding Method One Completion

Ian  is a relatively new Scientologist, and has been getting great results both applying and receiving LRH technology.  Here is his latest:

Success Story

At long last, I have finally completed my Method One Word Clearing – or M1WC.

I’m not completely unfamiliar with other word clearing methods as I have used different ones to help tutor both children (M3WC) and ESL students (M7WC). They had quite a lot of success with these as they became brighter, calmer and more confident in both writing and reading English over a short time span. Yet, while tutoring, I would notice that I sometimes stumbled in a few subjects that we touched upon. As I wanted to improve myself both as a tutor,  writer and overall communicator, I realized that this was something I would need to handle before continuing too much further.

I also had to really clear up all preconceived notions of the actual intention of this rundown; completing M1WC doesn’t mean that you will never have any misunderstood words ever again in your life. Rather, it goes through a number of subjects from a provided list and then any subjects that you bring up, and then handle each one that reads on the e-meter in order to handle your past (mis)education. Not only do you clear up every studied subject that comes to mind that you don’t understand, but also those you can’t even confront due to charge and bad handling (e.g. verbally abusive, belittling instructors or authority figures) while straightening out confusing, circular, vague and abstract concepts. In doing so, you conceptually grasp words that you have heard and read before, only this time you do not feel weird, tired, confused or stressed out for unknown reasons when encountering them. Every drive on the way home after session made me that much more aware of the words all around me – and how often they are misused on a daily basis!

As an English major and a fairly literate person who has had my work both published and produced on TV, when I finished M1WC I realized that if I had as many misunderstood words as I once did, then I could only imagine how much confusion that others must experience in their daily lives without M1WC!

As a result, I have gained empathy and a new perspective on others who struggle with training and learning processes. It’s not necessarily their fault, but largely due to bad educational tools and systems taught by instructors who themselves were poorly educated. I can easily see why literacy rates in the United States are steadily dropping, why people dislike going to school, and why many people generally don’t know what they hell they are talking about most of the time on nearly any given subject – mainly because they don’t look for themselves and instead copy someone else who acts as an authority figure, who themselves often doesn’t know what the hell they are talking about, or worse, has intentionally misled others. No wonder people get so easily led astray and offended over the smallest things!

I really do wish that more students could go through this experience, as we would have a better educated populace and reverse the downward trend – as well as have an increased interest for learning in general.

Since completing M1WC this week, I have had a wide range of successes. For example, now when I study Spanish – a subject I once struggled through and avoided for many reasons – it now seems completely approachable and fun, and I make it through all of the lessons error-free, including all of those accent marks that I once ignored.

I also had a pretty massive win, which happened near the start of my M1WC – I developed and submitted a patent for my company! After 4 months of work with legal, and right after the end of my rundown, we officially submitted it to the patent office this week! I was able to drastically improve the drafting process by working with the legal team to simplify and smooth out all wording, keep the examples consistent throughout, and generally make it an easy, clear read for the patent office so that my idea goes through without hindrance. Apparently, I just set a record in my company as nobody in my position – let alone someone who has been there for under a year – has ever submitted a patent through the company! People are definitely sitting up and taking notice. I really do think that I dramatically boosted my IQ over the course of this rundown.

Lastly, I have a nonfiction academic article that I have meticulously revised and submitted for peer review, which now is being read by a few famous professors and academic journals for consideration including publication or conference presentation.

On top of that, my relationships have definitely improved as I don’t get as upset or stressed as I used to over miscommunications, even when dealing with difficult, irrational or outright hostile people. My writing and speech has become calmer and more measured when handling such issues, and I can handle conversations a lot better. A big takeaway for me has been the general sense of calm that I have compared to before in writing, reading, speaking and listening. I’m by no means perfect, but I notice immediately that if I don’t know what a word means, not only am I more aware of the immediate physiological manifestations, but I will pause, look it up, clear it up for myself and then move along. I’m looking forward to doing M2WC in the near future as M1WC one handled past misunderstood words, and M2WC will handle present time ones as I read out loud. (But even if I never continue auditing from this point forward I know that I am in a much more stable place than I was when I started).

Many thanks to you, Randy for your patience as we handled all kinds of issues that came up – some directly related to this rundown, and some which were completely unforeseen. I know that this took much, much longer than anticipated due to extensive (and expensive) schooling which piled on the misunderstood words since childhood, but I really feel that it was all well worth it. And thank you to both my girlfriend Olga and also to Randy’s wife Kay who supported and encouraged me this entire time. And thanks of course to LRH and his staff for developing this simple, yet incredibly powerful technology.

I look forward to finally catching up on reading all of those books that I have been putting off for a while, and possibly even writing a few of my own – now I will know what the hell I am talking about!

–Ian

 

 

“The Banana Peel No Longer Exists for Me” -some remarkable wins from auditing.

Dan has been so full of wins lately in his auditing that I asked him if he would like to write up some.  Boy, Howdy!   Did he ever!

“Hello, my name is Dan Herbert.  Over the past 6 years I have had some remarkable auditing and I in particular would like to pay tribute to 3 of these occasions.

“First of all Russ Orrell did a grief rundown for me after my wife, Maggie Gilday, passed away.    During this assist which gave me lots of relief,  I attested to Clear and I thank Russ for spotting it – Thank You Russ for all your help!

“Not long after that assist, I encountered a wonderful thetan and auditor, Billy Nichols, and embarked on the OT adventure.  During this auditing I blew TONS  of significance, charge and mass.  There were times when Time ceased to exist and the only thing that existed was myself and viewpoint of the universe.  I felt without the sensation, the existence of my self as a static.

“Some of the attributes of that auditing include unbridled empathy, resiliency and determination.  I have never before felt so theta, centered, and aware that my existence was related and determined by me and for me, always knowing the “the banana peel” (that one might slip on and crash)  no longer existed for me.

“Well, after the above auditing I lived life for a while, quite happily.  But I sensed that there was still more adventure ahead, in going free across the other areas of life as well.  So, I postulated for something like that, and lo and behold my friend Martin connected me to Randy Smith, with whom I am currently getting OT auditing.

“I must tell you that I have never met a more complete and well-adjusted auditor, who himself lives life and dynamics that are important to him.  He is refreshing, sound, empathetic and fun.  His handling as a friend and auditor has been superb.

“After analyzing my case, Randy directed me onto my next step – Audited NOTS (Aka OT V).

“This has been a level that I had been interested in for some time.  OT V is many things and has to do with other influences and the clarity to address the difference between how you influence yourself, and when others have influenced you.

“I have gained tremendous ability to sort out the misconceptions in these areas – which can be VERY far-reaching.  This, in essence, is freeing me to “guide my own ship” – to decide solely on my own, without outside influences, known or unknown, and to better my existence as a free-thinking and free-spirited Thetan!”

Dan Herbert

 

A Real-World Follow-up

You might have seen yesterday’s success story from Ian on completing the Money Rundown.    Well, here is a follow-up report I just received from him today, showing a real-world result!

Hi Randy,

Hey so good news that I wanted to share with you: I booked another industry job right after session last night on my first (independent) feature film, and signed the start paperwork today.

Though a low rate, it’s more than they were initially offering as I was able to negotiate up and get really specific in my deal memo for how / when payment to be made by, guaranteed number of days, and minimum flat rate for under 8 hours. I’m also now learning that the production hadn’t even originally budgeted for my position, but the producers were so impressed with my work they freed up some funds to make it happen! Now I’m able to really begin building credits, a portfolio of work, and accumulate some serious days towards union entry.

And I noticed as I’d discuss what I wanted and was worth that I wasn’t even nervous as it’s just business; if it didn’t work out, I’d just move onto the next opportunity which I can easily create – even when they aren’t posting for it. I felt so confident moving forward, and it is cool to see results that very same day in the real world, now I know it’s not all subjective or cliches and platitudes that some success stories can feel like. Anyway just thought you’d like to hear of some more success manifesting itself in the world outside of the auditing room.

All the Best,

Ian

Thanks again!

Success from Auditing

Ian asked me for help with a particular subject, so we did some standard processes on it.  He just completed it today & had a very nice result:

MONEY RUNDOWN SUCCESS STORY

The subject of money is an incredibly charged subject for most people. I know it certainly was for me prior to completing The Money Rundown.

Like most people first looking to handle their financial difficulties, I began by looking at the externals. I attended a number of seminars, listened to many programs and read practically every book on the subjects of money and finances. I got a large number of different and conflicting viewpoints which, though interesting, were often confusing, and had very little impact overall on my financial well being or peace of mind.

You see, eventually I came to realize that my financial issues persisted  because I never worked on step zero: handling my negative core beliefs around money that caused said difficulties.

This led me to some 12 step programs (Debtors Anonymous & Underearners Anonymous) meant to help handle the stress, anxiety and difficulties I had around money, but ultimately turned out to be of little help – if anything it actually exacerbated the problems. In all, relatively little changed despite my knowledge and experiences, as I’d basically do OK financially for brief periods, but wouldn’t ever enjoy myself for fear of more problems down the road, then I would eventually fall back into my old ways, thus creating a self-fulfilling prophecy that kept repeating. It was extremely frustrating to say the least, because while my overall financial habits were actually pretty good as I’m pretty conservative with money (partly out of necessity), I never could earn enough nor feel at peace with what I had or wanted which led me to know something was off mentally.

I decided to handle this issue once and for all with my auditor Randy Smith. He heard and listened patiently to my concerns and worries as I discussed the subjects of money, work, career, jobs, income, finances, and other related words on the e-meter. (By the way, I also really like that he calls it “The Money Rundown” and not “The Prosperity Rundown” nor “The Havingness Rundown” to hide its true intention, as the Church now does due to its overwhelmingly bad PR; I mean, if you can’t talk about these subjects openly and call the underlying problem what it is, then how can you even begin to handle the problem?)

So one by one we went through all of these terms, using a number of processes to handle and flatten the charge around these things. While I can’t speak for others, for me it took quite a while to complete as it was really mixed in quite deep for me with a lot of other things that I had confused with it like love, success, identity, health, purpose, ego and more. But that said, it was so worth every penny that I spent to complete it because now I feel peace.

I can say that as a result of doing the work with Randy, I now have total acceptance of myself, my skills, my talents and my career, rather than fighting it and feeling insecure as I did so often. I actually also have no regrets about it either, as I noticed that I finally took responsibility for things that I hadn’t, and also let go of responsibility for things that were not mine to begin with, and learned from my past experiences which have proved to be extremely valuable.

Near the end of the process I finally shelved a career book that I was rereading for the third time, as I now have finally handled this issue. I also noticed that as things started to get handled, unexpected but certainly welcome income would appear from nowhere and opportunities would appear, despite never having applied for or even heard of them before. It was like drawing chance cards in Monopoly, only in real life!

I’m not going to kid myself that now this means I can sit back and relax while things somehow work out and that I will have never any outside issues with money in the future; I still have to do the basic work in order to find and earn income, create and build assets, and protect that wealth – but fortunately I know those good habits that I already developed will pay off both literally and figuratively as I no longer have any weird self-sabotaging beliefs about money anymore. With Step Zero done, the other steps are so much easier to handle, once and for all.

Now I certainly feel peaceful when I think of my current career and finances, where I came from and what I am creating for the future of myself and my family. Thank you Randy and Kay for your help and patience with this trying process, as well as to L. Ron Hubbard and the Scientology staff who piloted and assisted with the original program! What a great gift to myself and an awesome way to start 2016!

Ian

INTERIORIZATION RUNDOWN* SUCCESS STORY

Ian is a relatively new Scientologist, having done most of his auditing and training outside of the Church, here in the Independent Field.  I am  very proud of his progress – Randy

*Interiorization Rundown – “.. a remedy designed to permit the PC to be further audited after he has gone exterior.  The Int Rundown is not meant to be sold or passed off as a method of exteriorizing a PC.”   – Tech Dictionary

The Interiorization Rundown was, by far, the most intensive rundown that I have yet had in auditing!

As I get auditing, I am seeing how I had been withdrawing from life after numerous failures based on trying to be and impress other people, and so didn’t know who I was or what to do with my life. Now it’s all basically a combination of erasing the old & false as well as creating the new and true me.

I really appreciated running this process, because now a number of my tasks and goals finally feel like they are moving forward, being completed and being let go if off my purpose, which makes me feel more present, productive and accomplished. I also feel more able to go into physical situations where, even if somewhat out of my comfort zone, I am no longer completely avoiding them. While I realize that I still have to do the work to make my life goals happen, at least I don’t feel quite so “fixed” anymore and now it feels like there are far fewer barriers – most all of which I had put in place myself! Having done much work on my inside world, now I feel more ready to take care of what needs to be done on the outside one.

Thank you to my fiancee Olga for supporting me and her undying love, thank you to both Randy and Kay Smith for their help and encouragement with this process, and a big thank you for this technology formed by both L. Ron Hubbard and the uncredited members of his Scientology staff for creating and researching this process and helping me out … literally!

–  Ian

Success on OT V

Rima is an old friend, who had tried valiantly to get her OT V done in the Church  – twice – back in the 90’s, with such unsatisfactory results that she had decided to abandon Scientology forever.

Happily, we recently re-connected and turned things around, using LRH’s brilliant tech. Here is a recent success story:

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“Having been one who stoutly rejected “the tech”, I admit to having previous notions washed away. Through some clean-up auditing, I found where I had received some form of out-tech on various occasions!  That being handled, we went onto the NOTS auditing.  Being that this is my third time on it, all I can say is it’s been not only an eye-opener, but nothing short of miraculous.

There were steps / rundowns which I had never received! (In the Church)   I wonder now if the charge we (my auditor and I) removed wouldn’t light up a city for an hour or two!  🙂

The wins came up in layers, day by day.  Randy, my auditor, would not let me go past major blowouts.  How nice it was to be able to bask until the next session!

Along the way Randy’s high ARC and full understanding of the tech got me through many gnarly moments – all simply handled to FN VGIs.

Recently, after some word clearing and auditing on stuck flows, SOMETHING pretty major got unstuck!

I was telling Randy this morning that I keep getting these little bursts of joy / ARC  – sort of like little fireworks going off inside me, unannounced.

There is a LOT to be said about Standard Tech & I thank Randy profoundly for using it and sharing it with me.”

ARC,  Rima Evans Curry